我的天空 ((:

2011-04-22T15:19:00.003+08:00

i dunno why.
maybe wanted to try something new, thats y
heh.
http://yingnii.livejournal.com/

2010-10-29T23:14:00.002+08:00

when i looked through the stuff in my cupboard, that feeling went back again.
im happy to see everyone is growng up.
me myself has also grown up.
and i realised i was timid in the past.
scare to face the fact.
scare to solve the problem.
scare to stand up and just speak out.
and yeah.
the letter is still my cupboard.
letter that should be delivered 2 year ago but it is not due to my timidity.
it is still nicely folded kept in my folder.
it does still meant a lot to me.

i hope.
when we grow old,
we could sit tgt for tea break,
we could complain aboout our husbands,
we could chat about our children,
we could exchange our latest gossip,
we could share our cooking recipes,
we could talk about the older days,
most of all,
we could laugh tgt on the silly jokes.

laughs.
lucks for everyone ;)

2010-10-27T22:47:00.004+08:00

hahs!
it has been a long time since i blogged ....................................................
kind of busy also.
work
study
work
study !
hahs.
but now going to focus on work fully.
thinking to get another part time since im so free :D
i mean extra income is better !
then i can have more money on travel.
still trying to save up a bit.
jus a bit.

weeep.
meet gary and mr sim !
two different character,
but both are like so funny!
i nv fail to laugh in their lesson.
hahs.

then mr sim said that i made a lot of funny sound effect !
do i ?
hahs.
anyway,
im so lucky to meet them even for like only four lesson .

then kind of get used to doing compo every week.
feel sort of weird when i realised i dun have to write compo anymore.
like there is no goal in my life now
im walking without any destination.
nothing to work towards to

hahs.

so i got myself another target: have at least: 5.5k in my acc by feb 2011!
which means i need to earn like 1.5k every month.
that can afford ice vic sis myself air tickets to hainan for CNY
wahahhaaahaaaaaaa
got to work harder !

my 5.5k & holiday !
:D
night nights ;)

2010-09-18T22:11:00.002+08:00

ARGH !
im MOVED AGAIN!
because of some stupid slut in my sis's company.
ok.
i cant deny my sis is damm stupid as well.
cant blame her really.
she was feeling very guilty after the incident.
sigh!

havent met student for like a week ?
hope that she is doing fine.
but not trying to avoid my sessions.
really
i feel that my teaching style is okay !
and useful as well.
although somtimes i did slacked a bit.
but only SOMETIMES.
ok.
to be exact is
SEDLOM.
hahas.

my room is kind of small now.
even smaller than the old one.
i cant even put my closet in !
:((
only bed
and my study table.
well.
left not much space for me to walk.
im using my bed as the chair.
smart way of saving up space.
hehes.

kind of getting used to small rm.
not spacious room with air-con.
the room can still be cosy !
even thought it can be very messy becos of my laziness >.<

i can slp late tonight.
because my student cancel the seesion on tmr again !
well.
happy ? sad?
no hard feeling.
but thinking should get down to bugis tmr for a swim ?
or jus stay at home since i dont intend to go anywhr in the first place execpt for my session?
hmmmmmmm.
hmmmmmmmm.
hmmmmmmmmm.
and
im lazy to find my swimsuit!@@
grahhh.
have to unpack my stuff !
MUST !

2010-07-17T22:11:00.000+08:00

im so in love with yellow and blue now ! :D

2010-06-30T12:12:00.002+08:00

haha!
everything is going fine.
jus that i need to work a bit harder.
im trying to get my sentence correct
im trying to know whr goes wrong and why.
jus like he said
everything comes with experience.

sorted th photos in my thumbdrive.
then i realised thr is not much photo we have taken tgt.
pretty sad for th 7 yrs of friendship we have.
hah.

IM USING TOY STORY 3 THEMES FOR MY FIREFOX ;DD

2010-06-20T14:23:00.002+08:00

somehow im curious about ur current situation
after reading ur fb.
i tot u will be the princess in any fairy tale story that live forever happily and ever after.
but things dun seems to be this way.
why ?
maybe really.
fairy tale wont happen in real life.

jus hope that u wont drink that much as drinking is really harmful to ur health.
u taught me to take good care of my body becoz im a woman.
so.
u must treat urself good as well.

maybe im thinking too much.
or maybe u jus like to drink
and everything in ur life is fine.
:)

2010-05-26T20:33:00.002+08:00

shit !
i need my pay !

2010-04-30T23:50:00.002+08:00

weez!
working this weekend..
after that i really need to get started.

sigh.

2010-04-28T23:16:00.006+08:00

meet jing at tpy to teach her math.
then i was kind of bored when she was doing her hmks.
i should not be touching any books after i left th sch.
because i simply hate reading.
th words make me dizzy.
but no choice
has to force myself somehow.
so read newspaper.
then wrote something.
also.
although i never complete th whole story,
is better than nothing ok.
baka!

i cut short hair !
not really short la.
okay.
that was like weeks ago.
but cause long time no update also.
hehes.
not much different.
alot of ppl said very wasted cause my hair was very long.
i begin to like my hair :D
it makes my neck feels cooler.
now i have to bath before i go out
if not everyone were be staring at me because th courage i have
to go out with a lion hairstyle.
hahs,

:D

2010-04-24T00:04:00.002+08:00

well well.
im kind of jealous somehow.
hmmm.
not really said is jealous.
just that im feeling not really good.
after seeing smt.

tsk tsk tsk.

2010-04-20T21:02:00.002+08:00

i want to eat salmon.....

i did something that im not happy with.
my heart dun feel th same way totally.
im feeling numb for no reason?

im lost seriously.
i felt so restless
that i went shopping for an hour.

weird,
i dun feel delighted when i got new clothes like i used to.
i jus feel like buying smt ?
because i dunno wat should i do.
i jus feel like walking non stop even my legs are aching.
i jus feel like not using my brain to think.
i jus feel like making myself smile with no means.
i jus feel like being alone and staring into th air for nothing.
seriously,
give me a solution pls.

i hate th feeling of this.
th feeling of nothing.
~~this feeling.~~

girls are meant to be pampered.
as well as me.

2010-04-10T02:29:00.000+08:00

i hate th webcum of my com.
zzz

2010-04-07T23:51:00.003+08:00

omg omg.
im going to ice skate tmr ! :D

went back to sch for th o level cert.
then was kind of weird.
he.

i wanted to try drum :)

hmmm.

2010-03-25T01:45:00.004+08:00

hehes
i am back !
ehhhh.
but kind of lazy to blog.
selling my lappy to baka.
sigh.
then need to get a new one.
which model should i get ?

2010-02-10T00:28:00.003+08:00

hahs!
i got a free ride from mr coke to tpy jus now !
so cool ~
hahs.
hmmm.
went to cut my hair too.
then baka said look very cute.
then like lil girl =.=

left three more days then im free from all th standing!
:DDD

2010-01-30T01:24:00.004+08:00

hahs!
going to wild wild wet on mon.
but i m alrdy got sunburn on my face.
i look like a monkey butt now -.-
very very red.
also pain pain :((
i think is all because of work.
baka also cant run away from th sun.
whole hand red red!
hahahs.

saw ambulane today again!
this is like th 7th time i saw when i was with baka ?
are we too unlucky?
maybe.
i asked baka also.
how come with u always see this kind of thing ?
then she said we two together bad luck increased till th max.
then caused ppl around us sick or ill then 5151515151 le lo !

met czj at bus stop when waiting for bus home.
he seems to be very tall la.
or im growing shorter and shorter
-.-

cheers

;D

baka's ugly foot!

baka is looking at gold? hahs.

floating shoes! i got magic :p

shit im sleeping at th living room stupid la !
then my room is occupied by a worker ?
wth!
i can only alllow another two more days.
jus two more..

2010-01-23T19:56:00.001+08:00

hahs :)
im getting my new spec tmr :D

2010-01-22T01:24:00.002+08:00

hahs.
kind of bored.
cause sis said no money to give me!
then how ?
ehh.
plan to work for starhub first.
but also staring work soon la...............................................................
die die die die die die !

going back to schh tmr with baka.
hahs,

2010-01-21T04:03:00.002+08:00

hahs.
th work at yck ended.
is like so early.
then got another job at amk.
but 4th feb then start work.
i still have many many time la~~~
then no money go shopping and eat! :(
think need to stay at home more le la.
then pack pack my room.
read read books.
read read comics.
watch tv.
slack eat & sleep !
and soon i becoming fatter then cant fit th old clothes.
then have to buy new ones !
wahahahaha !
hehes.
really no money le la xie yingni !
bank left 5 dollar.
all thanks to th air ticket la.
sigh.

should be sleeping now.
but not really tired lo.
then think long time no blog so here im.
zzzz.
need to send didi to sch tmr then go amk help shino buy socking.
then go taka put time sheet !
ah !
card no money le la.
hais hais.

fairy tale :)

2010-01-12T17:11:00.001+08:00

hahs.
th sales was not good :(

2010-01-11T18:32:00.001+08:00

谢英妮又不及格了！
预料之中
但是心情还是会闷闷的
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

hmmmm.
June? Nov? Or aust?

2010-01-11T00:26:00.003+08:00

OMG !
omgomgomgomgomgomogmgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg!
im getting my result tmr.
RESULT !
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAH !!
im gonna crazy.
ah !
jc? poly ?
mi? private?
hais.
dunno wat i will get leh........................................................................................................
hope all pass la.
crazy crazy crazy.

i want to go 哈尔滨.
then like that i will everyday 哈哈哈哈！
=.=
ok.
i have one month to go!
hehes.

米修米修 ;D !

2010-01-09T17:11:00.003+08:00

i did smt i should not have jus now ?
im jus so curious.
hahs.
why?
i ask myself.
even though it was over for so long ago.
maybe i always have that thought we still can be very very close frends
that will share our sercrets together somehow.
that will share our happiness together someday.
im foolish ?
maybe..
im always being selfish and self-center
for thinking that
once a frend is always a frend no matter wat.
once we knows that person we can be frends too.
thinking that ~~she~~ will turn to me
when ~~she~~ is feeling down.
when ~~she~~ is bored.
when ~~she~~ need someone to acc for a haircut.
im jus thinking too much.
i guess i have to kick this habit away.
because i dun wanna to feel so moody whenever think about it.
she made a great impact in my life more than anyone did.
:)

im happy to know that u had finally found a job u really like.
& congrats.
u have worked for more than 4 months and broke th longest record in th past.
u are becoming more responsible :]]]

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away
though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just want to change the way the world goes round
Tell me
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see
That's the way I feel, about you and me... baby
Have you ever felt that your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking
I should know...
cause I loved and lost the day I let you go
Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised
It was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round
Tell me
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see
That's the way I feel... about you and me... baby
Have you ever felt that your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking

im going for a swim :)

2010-01-09T00:44:00.003+08:00

哈！
morning XYN !
went to rp open house this afternoon with baka.
i was late again.
hmmm.
this time is like one hour?
hahs.
then disturbed baka plan.
she planned to go nee an also
but we dun really have enough time when we are done in rp.
heh.
and hor.
woodland rains like crazy just after we got out th place,walking towards causeway.
=.=
i was jus like after a bath.
i should not have wear that "rainy shoe"
everytine i wear, it will rain.
hahs.
jus throw it away today.
anyway that shoe was like spoilt.

hence
we caught "听说" at th cathay.
it was nice :)
hmm.
cant say is a comedy
but th main characters are cute and funny.
i guess the movie was meant to motivate th public
because it talked about dreams and determination! :)
hmmm.
this is much better than th jay chou movie la !
hahs :D

i jus realise i mistaken 9 jan to be on friday.
until my boss called me this afternoon.
and said "are u coming for trainning?"
i was like...
omg.
it was friday today and not tmr.
everything went wrong!
我想我的神经还蛮大条的
连日期都可以搞错！
老板一定很生气啦！

sigh sigh.
jus hope on th first day nothing speacial happen unless is good one!
and i get good grades also :)
so poor thing lo.
after getting th result need to rush to work and cant celebrate :((.
even th result is like worse.
i still have to EAT!
hahs.

i saw smt that i also wanted to know in th past.
hahs.
hmmm.
i dun feel neither happy nor sad.
jus like..
feel that th god sometimes is really bored.
so he started to play with humans on th earth.
when we wanted to know th answers to some questions,
we cant get it no matter how hard.
and even when we walked pass th place that can provide us with th answer a lot of time.
we missed again.
and today.
jus a glance accidently.
i saw it.
MDIS.
so amazing?
i think so.
maybe this is wat we called "fate".

2010-01-06T00:11:00.002+08:00

peep !
watched 刺陵 by jay chou at qy house.
she get th pirated dvd from her frend.
at first wanted to watch it at vivio
but lucky we didnt !
th movie was a waste of time!
really!
i was waitting for th exciting part all along.
but nothing really attracts me.
no plot.
no high tide.
no good moves.
rating 1/5!

hahs!
going to interview tmr with qy & baka!
they are finding job also.
then im finding temp job then can only work till 11jan!
if not i will rot at home this few day.
but also very good.
save money!

真正的忘记是不用任何的xx.

why?

2010-01-04T02:28:00.006+08:00

went to celebrate hui bday jus now.
kar didnt turned up.
yeah.
hui was kind of pissed off.
then she texted her.
now i realised how much unhappiness between them when i was not around.

i feel rather envious/jealous when i saw my frends
having two cakes for bday,
having lots of colleague cheering them,
having bday msgs from th others,
having outing together that im not in,
having photos taken that im not a part,
having a really good suitor beside even though they are not tgt,
having that cheerful smile seems like nothing bother them at all.

but th most i feel relieved/delighted to
know them are so happy,
so contented.
having such a good life.
that makes me to raise th corner of my lips up :).

when i was young,
i always think that i have a bunch of great friend.
now i still tot so.
even though
things didnt went so smoothly.
th relationship are not so simple as usual..
i will still cried and trembled when i know that my frends are having so much dispute.
i dun mind that things went back everyone is pointing finger and felt dissappointed at me,
but not like now.
where on th outing 6 turn out to be only 5.
slowly is cutting down to 3.
then again 2..
im always getting used to be alone.
eating alone.
travel alone.
study alone.
working alone.
swimming alone.
but are you?

why must things have to keep deep in th heart?
why cant everyone jus talk it out?
i hate th times when th others know but not th person herself.
i hate th times when sercret is buryed.
i hate th times when lies are made between frend.
i hate th times when at th edge of expose yet th person still trying to deny.
i hate th times when u guys are not happy and agitated because of each other.
i hate th times when pride is so important and stubborness.

i discovered in order to maintain a frendship
understanding and intiative to share are really needed.
no matter how neglected u feel.
u have to tell each other.
if not th gap will be keep growing,
till one day u realised.
th person feel like a stranger to you yet and also somehow very close.

i had that feeling before.
really.

i pray that everything is gonna be all right again.

2010-01-03T14:51:00.002+08:00

hahs !
is a new year again.
i jus realised i dun really like to use com.
=.=
prefer to go out!
hehs.

created livejournal actually.
but deleted without any entry.
because im kind of lazy to type in a totally new environment ba.

get th job in sakura.
but missed th coupon job.
im simply jobless now.
no plans and money at all !
need to wait till 7 jan
and meet allyn to th open house.
lalas.
mum is coming back tmr.
yet my room is still in a mess
even though is better than previous.
but still very messy.

currently watching fairy tail in funshion.
hmmm.
not bad.
i have read th comics till 17 but th book is only till episode 11.

ehhh.
i need to go to th library!
:)

2009-12-27T01:05:00.002+08:00

whooa!
ehhh.
almost clear 1/4 of th stocks.
hahs.
get back i think.
like 114.
is better than nothing right?
and my room now is like even more messy because i was clearing my wardrobe
thus i placed my pile of clothes on th bed.
now i wanted to sleep but no choice have to clean up first.
then lazy and ended up infront of th com now.
hahs!
sometimes i wish i were man instead of woman.
then thr wont be so many sutff for me to buy!

have an interview in jurong at 12pm.
i bet i can contact baka and go for interview.
i really need a JOB NOW !
grahh.
th whole day,
i only manage to do one thing ?
and it is not even finish yet.
hehes
:D

i miss u,
or should i say i miss th times we spent
and th promises u gave me.
that we will be going to oversea tgt.
i cant admit th person i really love once
is dead.

2009-12-26T15:12:00.003+08:00

hahs !
suppose to be outside with allyn.
but i overslept till she called me.
then i wass like omggg.
aiya.
i didnt did it in purpose la.
i set alarm to avoid getting late.
but in th end it does not make any difference.
heh!
watched chipmuck 2 with qiuyi and jing yesterday night at bugis.
it was a rush.
as i went to have lunch with apple and hui before that.
ended up i reached home at around 12plus th same time.
i have hardly stay at home more than 3 hours not including sleeping time.
my room is like a rubbish dump?
full of clothes and books.
everywhr is filled with something.
even when i was trying to find my dvd
i need to move th things here and thr
to search it because it lays underneath!
i always planned to pack,
ending up no actions are carried out.
hahs.
cant blame.
th time when i reach home is meant to bath and sleep!

grahhh.
now i have a whole list of to-do!
-clear my room
-sign up for ice cream course
-change my ic address
-need to buy XXXX
-need to clean my shoes
-need to buy bedsheet
:((
so many thing to do
sigh....
!

2009-12-22T00:53:00.004+08:00

HAHS!
feel like using other colour becoz it is night time now ?
hmmm.
maybe hahs,
29 is coming yet i haven got an anser from my sis whether im going back.
tsk.
dun really feel like going also.
but i need to get my ic done somehow.
so is a must to go back.
is jus a matter of when.
lalalas.
the book fest ended.
heh.
i bought 3 books.
i like one of them th most yet it is th most expensive ones :( .
jus feel that th book is actually quite interesting.
but others think that is rather weird to read this kind of book.
hahs.
it is abt all th bad womans in th history.
“历史上最棒的坏女人”
this book only left three when i bought it.
i think they nv order too many copies also.
:D

but im kind of lazy to read now.
hahs !
okay.
i have a lot of things tmr .
need to sleep early le lo..

2009-12-15T20:29:00.002+08:00

hahs!
i bought a bag at 53$!!
omg.
hmmm.
i like th bag la.
not bad.
jus that is like too ex.
trying to sell all th items that are new but
i dun even weear.
at least have money lo.
put at home nv wear also like waste.
hehes.
i kind of forgot wat to blog.
no feel also ~
next time ba ! ;D

2009-12-06T00:06:00.004+08:00

hahs.
5 of dec!
mum is going back next tues.
then planned to bring mum to th fish spa at marina sq.
i never tried before also.
going together with mum and sis then dun have to pay lo !
hahs .
great deal ;D.

hmmm .
currently working for this magazine company.
th pay is vey low.
but it is very flexible.
u want then work.
dun wan can dun work.
jus like ice cream but ...
thr is a basic pay of $20 per day
no matter of how long.
then commission wise is like 10%.
but now is slightly different coz of th sing flyer thing.
hahs.
today is th third day of work.
yet we only have like 3 sales?
today then start to have customers.
hahs.
but th ppl thr are very nice!
i still got a free ride home today by daryl.
th manager lo.
at first i still tot of quiting and get a new job.
but now im somehow reluctant.
im thinking to continue working but only on weekends.
then maybe admin on weekdays.
hahs.
by then i m fully occupied.
oh yeah !
i met old sch mate.
monks hill one.
he worked for th company for almost 2 plus year.
i was quite stunned when i met him this afternoon.
but he still remember me except for my name.
hehes.

and and !
i saw SEBASTIAN NICHOLAS!
th world ranked second magician!
from germany.
he is cute ;D.
then he performed close up magic to me.
predict th number i m thinking.
and yeah .
he got it correct.
hahs!
should i consider singapre flyer as a lucky place for me ?
becoz i met alot of good ppl.
and lots of famous ppl! :DD
wakakaka.
hope th sales for tmr is good !
at least 10 customers !
wish wish !

im kind of lazy to upload th photos >.<
next time ba!
singapore flyer is not really that fun as i expected.

2009-11-30T12:34:00.003+08:00

hehes.
th last day of NOV!
getting really bored this few day.
cant go out becos no money .
then stay at home also nothing to do! :(
heard that bro is giving me 2ooo before he leave.
but he didnt -.-
i think mum go back then give me ba.
then she told me to buy my own ticket back.
and and !
someone stole 7000 from my bro!
he only realised when he was packing and counting th money.
i bet my dad will yell at him.
stupid la.
curse that person everynight dun have good sleep.
i have thought of someone in mind.
but aiya no proof.
jus feel so.
tsk !

bro had left.
mum and zhen are leaving on th 8 dec.
and stupid.
i cant send them to th airport.
becos im going to work even when th sun is not out yet.
hahs.
going out with allyn tmr.
hmmm.
maybe to jurong point ?
jus dun feel like staying at home.
:)

dunno why.
i went to read someone's blog.
and realize you didnt change.

2009-11-24T22:42:00.006+08:00

omg ~!
th photo is so blur that we all look very ugly =x
all th others photo are with allyn!
waiting for her to online and send me *_*
hahs !
went to cine with allyn and watched 2012.
th theater was filled with ppl which i never expected to be that much.
titaya joined us after th movie for dinner.
at first she was supposed to watch th movie as well.
but she was held by her bone check up or smt for like 8 hours.
she told us th doctor was so slow that her psp was nearly out of batt.
i can imagine how bored she was,sitting and playing with her psp for about 8 hrs.
hahahs.
met ber at cine a while.
jus a lil chats.
she was thr to meet apple and yihui after their work.
hehes.
我吃了虾面当晚餐！

was chatting on msn.
and chong zhe came when i was eating mango!
he is soooooooo cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ! :DDD
he is turning one years old tmr !
bbq!
he is really that cute!
no doubt!
see urself! ;DD

im not wrong,
right right?
hehes.

2009-11-23T13:26:00.002+08:00

jus created th tagboard.
hmmm.
i forgot what had happened for th last few day.
hahs!
nvm la.
jus normal stuff lo.
and hor !
shino gets a mini laptop from her aunt.
then sis jiu ask bro to get zhen a laptop also.
say wat ppl have she dun have then unfair.
wow!
primary school jiu use laptop.
then shino now still have facebook also.
is like zZZz.
wat the hell la.
i bought my laptop with my own money lo.
then now she only ask then jiu have laptop le.
so unfair.
my sis still act leh.
at first say wat.
dun pamper her see ppl have then ask jiu have.
then now bro is here .
and ask bro buy for her.
if cant.
then go back china ask my dad buy for her.
who is her grandpa.
crap.
she is already spoilt.
now dun even respect me.
i m too lazy to scold or teach her th proper manners.
ater become my fault again.
tsk tsk.

i need jobs!
only tempoary la.
cant work beyond 8 dec.
this makes me hard to find any jobs.
every post avaliable need to work for at least one month :(
grahh.

mum and bro are going back at th 8 dec.
hahs.
now sis is trying to book th ticket somewhr in nov.
because bro has smt important matter thr.
like signing contract or smt.

okay.
i m going out soon.
bybye~

2009-11-19T14:41:00.003+08:00

hahs!
i cant believe myself in falling asleep at th staircase in cityhall control station.
so many ppl were walking past.
lucky my hair covered my face.
if not later got ppl take photo then ....
hahs.
cant blame la.
i was so tired that i missed my stop also
all blame that ong baka.
let me wait for nearly 2 hours!
th chalet was fun :)
jus that we bbq in th rain again.
then GR treated me in th midnight movie! :D
that was so kind of him.
and he was lucky.
that ppl let him in when he is not even 16 yet.
oh yeah !
he is turning 16 today.
hope that he is having a good time now.
*i fall asleep in th movie also !* >.<
th movie was like so bored.
i m not th ony one falling asleep la!
th most exciting part was only th last 2 mins.
hahs.

it is raining again now.
sigh sigh,
because of th rain .
i cant go diving with titaya.
next year she is going oversea for studies.
then i told her.
why not i fly thr and find her then we go dive.
then she was like so happy.
because she is going to be alone thr.
then she has to work for her own expense.
hmmmm.

going for interview tmr !
wish me luck ! :]

everyone was like so cute and funny.
i had a great time at th chalet
because i laughed like crazy again! ;DD
but i became panda also.
hahs.
nvm.it's worth for th laughter :)
i want th photos!

2009-11-15T19:47:00.003+08:00

hahs!
jus had steamboat with my family.
at first is planned to have it with baka them.
but hor
i no $$$ le la!
so have to stay at home.
like that then wont spend money le lo.
weez!
hmmm.
still finding jobs.
tsk.
dun have to go back to school anymore now.
kind of feeling bored.
hahs.
well.
not going back this year.
i guess.
maybe next year.
when th air ticket is cheaper and i need to get my ic done.
zZZ.
i m feeling lazy.
lets see when is my mood right again
then i m back here again.

i read smt that make me feel like
"actually all this shld refer to me?"
but in fact it is not.
this is life.
smt that can seem to be happening on u in th future.
ended up is not.
no one can expect wat is going to happen next mins,
because everyone is changing.

2009-11-09T20:15:00.003+08:00

wat should i say actually ?
everything is flowing smoothly ?
or finally is it back to th orginal spot?

wat will u do when one of ur closest frend or someone get bully or get criticise? try to defend her? try to criticise back th person? frankly, i will do that somehow. but then i feel so stupid and restless from that. from all the "war" from all the negative comments. then u have to be reasonable. wat if is ur frend that is in wrong in the first place? her/his action provoked that person initially? suddenly, i felt "feeling" can be very irrating. something meant nothing to u yet it can meant precious to someone else. why cant everyone sit down and have a drink together? be friends and chat without all those comments in heart. without all those nasty stuff and stand in each other shoe. and feel for eah other?
why the relationship cant be as simple as 123?
if really dun like each other,
why cant jus leave him/her alone
but not making nasty comments?
and also not i hate humans, because i hate myself in seeing people i know turning out to be enemy, fighting and defending..
i learnt to escape and pretend to know nothing.

2009-11-09T17:10:00.002+08:00

hahs !
i felt so weird.
th sch holiday is near.
i should feel happy.
yet i m not that excited actually.
maybe is because
it symbolise that i need to find a job and earn my own pocket $.
Zzzz..
now i prefer to study!
hehes >.<

humans being are jus like that.
including me.

2009-10-12T20:27:00.005+08:00

read lsy blog.
felt both happy and depressed.
because she wrote
"she makes me happy"
and the she refert o minyi.
she never wrote this sentence refer to me in her blog.
well.,
i cant say anything.
jus hope that she is happy.
free of troubles.
her posts are getting better and better as time goes by.
no more sad and emo posts anymore.
:)
maybe i should have left her early.
then this day will come earlier for her.
"th bus trip for today reminds me for u,"

goodbye dear.

goodbye lim shiyun.

im really gonna to lock all our memories deeply in my heart

& wish u have a really happy ending with minyi.

& are forever smiling

because i will also feel hurt when seeing u cry.

u're th sweetest candy in my whole life :).

bye,

deardear.

u're always th secret of mine :).

20082008.

12102009.

2009-10-08T21:08:00.001+08:00

lalalas.
exam is jus in a weeks time.
and i m still slacking.
!
grah .
i should really push my self harder.
and everything i promise myself didnt came true.
jus like not usng th cm .
not watching tv.
not spend time on useless stuff.
hais .
everyone is already mugging .
even kar them.
!

2009-09-27T19:20:00.002+08:00

hahs .
i had moved out of th semb house.
texted lsy ysterday night and informed her.
at first dun feel like doing so.
but in th end i did.
hmmm.
maybe jus feel abit rude if i left without telling her.
then i still tot that she will come up and knock on my door since im leaving th next morning.
but she didnt.
she didnt even my msg.
sucks man.
jus went to facebook then view her wall.
yeah .
then i saw minyi name again.
freak.
that feeling make me feel very irriated.
maybe i tot that they dun contact that often yet turn out is not true.
freak !
i m sleeping in a damm small room.
and that room dun even have air con .
i m depending on th fan.
grahhh .

sometimes i really hope that i had met a car accident that cause me to lose all th memory.
at least .
this way i forgot th pressence of u in my life and
feel better ?
even if i met u on th street
my heart wont freeze and
my limps wont not numb.

2009-09-16T16:39:00.002+08:00

~ .
get new phone yesterday nokia e63.
a blue one.
with th full keypad .
not really very happy over it .
because th phone is not as good as i thought.
i cant off th shutter sound of th camera during photo taking !
thats sucks la !
grahhh .
anyway i dun have a single penny.
so jus get abit happy ,
for getting a new phone at no cost -.- .
lamee ~ .

now at qy house then her house no ppl .
her brother went out an hour ago .
using her lappy right now.
hmmmm .
waiting for her to be back home then home .
and also waiting for my new phone to get charged .
8 full hours .
just took a look at it .
th battery bar is full ,
but new phone need to charge for at least 8 hours leh .
so i just leave it there ..

left 40cents for this week .
tsk .
but i m not feeling rather anxious or something .
because i have packet of instant noodles at home .
i m going to stay at home and eat those instant noodles for my meals .
no money = cant go out .
everything needs money !@
zZZZZZZZ .

thr is a food treat at japan restranut by ron on this coming sunday .
i felt rather pleased to receive his invite :) .
at least i can jump th guys for fun .
hmmmm .
but still thinking whether should turn up or not .
i m afraid to be left out during th outing or feeling weird ?
hmmmmm ,.
then allyn said she follows my decison .
hahs .
:D

2009-09-13T12:51:00.002+08:00

nah .
jus wake up.
dun have a good sleep .
keep on wake up and force myself to sleep again cause i dun want to study !
freak !
then now i m totally clueless about bio !
i guess i need to spend tonight at qy house to stuff everything in my mind in order to pass ?
thats suck !
last min work wont turn out to be good!
going to meet sis to pass her letters .
then go qy house le lo.
also getting money from sis to pay th hp bill.
then i m going to change now phone !
wuhahahahah !
cool ~ .
okay .
im going to take a bath then out of th house !
hahs :D .

i wish i m more hardworking than now !

2009-09-12T22:16:00.002+08:00

tingwei jie now is at SuZhou la!
she is at th SuZhou university for 17 weeks.
errr.
dunno why she didnt attend th uni in sngapore.
yupyup.
but read from her blog .
visa-lee.blogspot.com
she seems to be doing okay.
staying at hostel and everything.
hahs :D .
maybe i should also go stay hostel after th flat is sold.
try something new ~!
then need to ba paid for th laundry service and everything .
but th room is attacted with a toilet.
that is good better than sharing with someone else :) .
okay.
im going off ~
bye

2009-09-11T23:06:00.002+08:00

slept overnight at qiuyi house fro th past few days !
hahs .
then i m home now.
school is going to start on mon and yet i didnt use this whole week wisely for my study ! :(( .
sigh.
i cant do anything la.
really.
i felt like slapping myself for not using th time wisely .
when th o level is coming.
then i got bird shit on my arm ytd night =.=
when i was walking at chong pang with qiuyi after supper.
th first time in my life man !
tsk .
okay .
bye :)

2009-09-07T23:19:00.002+08:00

hahs !
had been writing on microsoft words recently.
but then i have to try and use perfect english.
if not th whole page will be full of green line with grammer mistake or red line that is spelling mistake! :DD .
hahs.
i still dun have th money to pay my hp bill .
yupyup .
no choice.
anyway i dun reallly need a phone ?
right.
if there is someone wants to find me then they will call me.
and my phone can take in incoming calls.
yupyup.
gonna start working hard .
seriously .
"i have been saying this from months ago but i didnt make it come true"
i should have slap myself.
mygod !
im very dissappoint in myself .
i jus cant be more discipline to start to do works !
freak !
okay .
i need to get th laundry done and then to th bed.
thr is erp tmr.
additional math ~~~ .

2009-08-31T15:53:00.002+08:00

weez !
i m home now !
and outside is raining heavily .
i ran from th bus stop jus now .
hahs !
lucky i was not that wet .
hehe ;D .
had teacher day celebration in shcool today .
quite a bored one .
th performance were almost th same as last year : high school musical .
i was chatting all th way with baka about th girl on stage .
how pretty and how confidence she is .
hahs .
she is born naturally to be on stage ,
with all th attention on her .
well .
thr is no school tmr .
and i need to the time to revise on ss and physic !
:(( .
and and !
my phone line is being cut off because i nv paid th bill .
wat th hell !
i took cab this morning as well .
thr goes my 20bucks .
sigh .
going to call dad later to ask him to transfer money .
hope he can .
cause i have a few debt to pay off .
kar mum .
internet bill .
school fee .
phone bill .
and also !
books , clothes , dress i wanted !

;DDD .
money money ! $.$

i wish upon ...

2009-08-30T23:19:00.005+08:00

once ,
i thought that we can be really real frend .
or rather very close fren after break up .
because u know everything of mine .
every lil sercret of mine .
every detail of my family background .
every frends around me .
every bad sides of mine .
i thought that even we cant be lover then maybe we can forever frend .
those very close frend .
frends that we will share about our life .
like how bad we feel sometimes .
like how bad th day is .
like how happy we are with something .
like how u or me think of that guys or girls .
but everything is not happened as wat i have wished for .
yeah i guess .
we cant be th odd one .
we are jus th mostly .

because most couples cant be frend after break-up .
sometimes i really hope that we are not among them .
but times prove everything .
we are one of them .

2009-08-30T23:14:00.004+08:00

yeah .

as wat i thought u had a fever .

i was worried like hell th whole last night .

because u nv reply me whether u are feeling better or not .

i m really afraid that u ar being left alone and no one bring u to see doctor .

but yet .

i had forgotten that she is thr for u .

cabbed down to bring u to seee doctor and everything .

and u have forgot me really .

because u texted me when u remember and told me that u are having a fever .

"oh ya i have food poisoning fever last night"

2009-08-30T13:38:00.002+08:00

i misunderstood everything .
still thought that i m on ur mind .
i felt so stupid .
really like a fool .
how m i still feel like crying ?
it hurts ...

sometime i wish u will hold me very very tightly

and ask me dun go ...

2009-08-29T15:10:00.005+08:00

weeeez !
i jus refomat my com and everything in th cm is jus liek brand new :DD .
i met lsy and her mum at th bus stop 2 days ago .
then i was like stunned .
she went to had another mouth piercing .
yeah .
i dun like it .
but she like it so no choice is her body .
i didnt comment that much .

20082009 .

is th date of one year .

frankly i was waiting for her call .

her message th whole .

but yet .

i recieved nothing .

then i was like .

"why m i still so silly? is over .... "

i had not visit her blog and everyone's blog since th date of 13 .

i m controlling myself .

really.

GOOD JOB XIE YINGNI :D .

now i have no idea .

where she had been .

where is she going to work .

what she ate for dinner and lunch .

and everything .

omg .

i guess .

is better this way .

she has her own life without me so i have to get used to th life without her as well .

everything is going to be fine .

i told myself .

when i m missing u really hard .

had my english prelim paper yesterday .
yeah.
the paper is difficult .
but i think i did tried my best .
i can proudly say this is th first time i treated english so seriously .
i tried and think very hard for every answer i wrote for th comprehesion .
i really wanted to score well .

i got a B3 for my chi o level .
it sucks .
but this is th grade i deserve .
i didnt prepared and everything .
baka and jolene score A1 for it .
well .
blame myself for not working hard .

i want to score straight A for my o level result !
nothing is going to beat me :)
not ever u .

2009-08-13T22:44:00.002+08:00

hahs .
watching tv now .
th taiwan drama .
jus had night study in school .
before that had lunch with allyn and baka and jolene .
then allyn was like so funny .
she talked a lot of funny stuff .
and she ask baka a qns .
why yingni always ask weird qns ?
then i was -.- .
hahas .
but can see that she is a very cheerful girl .
really a cheerful one .
okay .
i have lots of math ws and chem hmks :( .
hope i can finish everything .
really everything !

2009-08-10T21:19:00.002+08:00

secrets ,.
wat does it mean ?
something that u dun wanna others to find out ?
that is deep inside ur heart ?
but have u ever wonder actually everyone knows it .
they are jus pretending they dunno anything
because they are told to do so .

and wat is th excues they were said that they leak it out ?
"becasue i cant stand it and wanted to share with someone, sorry"
then .
dun ever ask someone when u cant keep th words only to yourself .
u are jus destroying th trust that person have for u .

2009-08-08T10:13:00.003+08:00

everyone is changing jus like th earth is rotating ,
trying to protect themselves from getting hurt .
but at th same time ,
they lost th ability to understand th others .
without realised .

2009-08-08T10:02:00.001+08:00

hahs !
i woke up early.
yeah .
ate my breakfast & i m gonna to watch CONAN !
okay .
i know i should not.
but jus one more episode :)) .
then i will start to do work !
really !
okay .
here i goo ~

2009-08-07T08:10:00.001+08:00

i jus changed my mail .
hahs !
yeah .
i didnt went to school .
i promise this wil be th last time >.< !
really !
i m gonna to change .
to a hardworking gal.
because i really want my 8 point .
im left with nothing now .
jus work .
u are a jerk !
all that i can say .
i want to prove everyone wrong !

is time for a change ..

2009-08-06T22:10:00.003+08:00

i tried .
and nothing changed .
at first i tot that maybe relationship between me and kar will be a lil better .
but is not .
it turns worst now .
all because of th money thing .
and i think back now .
i felt that she is so selfish ?
she want me to lie to her mum when she was out with her bf .
everytime when u are in trouble or need help .
u will find me .
then i will think all sorts of ways to help u .
even when i was in school .
i will still rush down to help u .
but now .
i only say dun chase me for th money .
i will return means i will .
is jus a matter of time .
dun have money then dun buy new phone la .
i m not being nasty or wat .
i only need a frend that will really support me .
but have u ?.
think over th past year .
have u ever ?
support me ?
when i spoke to u .
u will use ur own mindset and think .
but never ever try to feel how i really feel ?
is that really a frend ?
say all u wan kar .
i have nothing to say to you now .
jus like how much u feel that i m a bitch or slut .
so wat i m in th wrong .
sound like u never did anything wrong before .

everyone is changing .

jus like me and YOU .

ur thinking dun work in my LIFE .

2009-08-05T22:03:00.002+08:00

got suspended AGAIN !
hais .
i m not going to late anymore .
i mean it !
th very last time for this year ...

2009-08-03T22:18:00.002+08:00

NAH NAH NAH !
i got suspension today !
late for 6 times :'( .
then like that lo .
spend my time wisely i guess .
but not really much works are completed !
so funny .
.
.
...
i m watching th television show now ! xD .

i want to score well .

extremely well .

2009-08-02T23:03:00.005+08:00

i feeling rather moody now .
and i think i dun have th time to sleep tonight .
i need to complete all th hmks before school tmr .
teach me how pls ,
will u ?

teach me how to not missing u .
teach me how to not dreaming of u when laying on bed .
teach me how to not worried bout u .
teach me how to not feel like cryin gwhen i thought of u .
teach me how to not feel so sweet and warm when those memories are rawling in my mind .
teach me how to tell u how badly i wanted u to fetch me from school .
teach me how to have that courage to tell u I MISS YOU.

2009-08-02T19:07:00.001+08:00

grah !
i wasted two days on tv show .
jus stayed at home .
with th com .
with th tv !
ah !
:((

2009-07-31T19:58:00.003+08:00

i m clumsy , dumb and careless !
hahs .
tot i lost my house key.
and i was very very anxious .
ended up spending a night at jolene house .
hahs :DD .
she owns a dog and is cute .
then when i got my sis's key .
i found mine which is in th bag !
omg .
i was like ....
get scolding for nothing .
but is good la.
i dun need to spend th extra money to duplicate a new one .
errr .
going to bath and start to work !
start to pack my clothes as well .
i need to move out when th mid-aug is here .
goodbye .

thr is lesser time left ..

2009-07-29T23:49:00.002+08:00

never went to school .
and this time i m really so called "sick " !
hahs .
then spent 20 bucks on mc.
this time th doctor is different !
then he said .
wow .
on month on time .
not good la.
later olevel dun do well .
then i was like -.- .
okay .
but it is true la .
jus done with chinese graduation thing .
going to do chem then
BED !
:DD .

2009-07-27T00:10:00.003+08:00

after so many weeks and days .
i visited yihui blog .
and i saw u tagged on her blog on th 20th of july .
i was shocked?'
i jus feel so nasty and everything .
maybe is because i was waiting for ur msg yet u are using th com
and totally forgot about it .
yeah .
i guess i didnt even stand a little place in ur heart now .
really .
i m still feeling hurt .
and eyes are filled with tears .

2009-07-25T21:19:00.002+08:00

GRAH ! ~
I LOST MY ATM CARD !
this happened on th way to sis house .
then tmr is sun .
th bank is closed .
i need to wait till mon then have money .
i m totally relay on maggie tmr and now !
grahh ~~ .

2009-07-25T01:06:00.002+08:00

WOPS !
i m HERE AGAIN !
hahahs !
it had been a long time since i touched this lappy .
yeah .
it was on loan !
kakakakas .
starting th night study session .
mon.tues.thurs.
and this is still not enough .
almost everyday i m having extra lesson till 5pm !
at least !
math. chem. bio.
my god !
and i will tell myself .
jus bear with it for three months and i m free !
i will have lots of time to enjoy myself ! :DDD .
HAHS .

i dun wanna to talk bout other things for th time being .

2009-07-13T17:56:00.001+08:00

I NEED A SHOUDLER BADLY .

2009-07-10T12:43:00.002+08:00

i didnt went to school again .
and this is not wat i had expected ?
because thr is test today .
and i dun wanna to miss it .
:( .
but ..
maybe i jus need someone to push me .
someone .
who is always thr for me .
and yet now she is gone .
and tell me why ?
th only thing i can do is .
depend on myself in everything .
because i know i can do it !
trust myself !
jia you JIA YOU !

2009-07-09T23:50:00.002+08:00

hahs .
nv went to school again .
and i didnt revise anything again .
ah !
jus feel like slapping myself to say o level is coming !
is like left only 2 months to go .
grahh .

u changed ur blog link without telling me .

cleared ur tagboard and everything

i guess .

u are ready for a brand new chapter in ur life.

take care :)

sometimes i hope that wat u typed is refering to me .

but i m afraid it is not .

2009-07-08T19:01:00.002+08:00

hahs .
i m home from school !
jus attended motivation workshop .
and th coach is still th same .
his reaction is so funny .
i had a great time at laughing throughout th whole seesion .
hahs .
:D

2009-07-07T20:10:00.003+08:00

u texted me today .

asked me whether i went to school or not .

only one msg .

nvm .

then i m actually quite curious if i replied no .

what u will say next ?

...

had a long day in school today .
and yes .
i still have hmks to do .
especially math worksheet .
i have lots to clear man !
hahs .
:DD .
my house is in a big mess ! @.@

2009-07-06T18:41:00.005+08:00

read everyone's blog .
and i found out that u guys are actually enjoying urself to th max .
hve ur own thing to work .
smiling to th camera sweetly .
posting with of joys .
and .
i jus thought .
if u guys had not met me in th first place .
thr wont be so many problems .
so many cris .
so many tough times .
yeah .
same goes to shane .
she must be busy with something again now .
and thr is someone to make her smile and acc her in everything .
she dun need me anymore .
sometime how i hope i can replace her in some ways .
but i know i cant .
something u will only think of her .

frankly
i dun have th courage to trust anymore .
thats y i nv ever ask u guys out .
and u all look so happy .
i dun wish to spoilt everything .
to make myself look so awkward .
it jus horrified me in a certain way .
i wont look back no matter wat .
because it jus make me feel so bad .
like i m th only one in wrong .
i had tired but u guys dun seem to care .
so i jus let it be ...

i tear again .

because of u .

so have u ?

2009-07-03T17:52:00.002+08:00

had chi o level oral jus now !
then i was like nervous ?
then i didnt speak really good .
hais .
nvm
is OVER !
focus on other subject ba .
hahs .
had a quarrel with darling again .
and this time she thought that i m looking down at her which i did not !
gosh !
she totally misunderstood my meaning la .
:( .
all her words were caps lock !
after that .
she nv text me anymore .
not even text to ask how is my oral :( .
seriously i dunno wat to do anymore .
she dun seems to care AT ALL !
...

2009-07-02T17:34:00.003+08:00

going to have my chi o level tmr ! :D .
err .
i m not really afraid or nervous .
hahs .
i jus wondered will i get a A for chi ? :( .
jus hope i can .
but i dun have th confidence ....

i think dear is sleeping now .
cause i text her but no replied :( .
then her last msg was "i m on th bed "
think she wake up very early today to get th food ready .
and is tired now .
then dozed off on th bed .
later bev and minyi will be having steamboat at her house .
and i m not being invited :( .
nvm then .
think too much also no use la !
hmmmm .
yesterday i also dozed off on th bed .
till this morning .
5 am !
hahs .
ended up not even a single work is done .
sigh .
i have so many work to do .
but i m jus lazy .
next tues thr is a bio .
every topic in sec 3 !
my god ! ~
i really want to score well in it .
and suprise th teacher !
:(

2009-07-01T20:29:00.003+08:00

jus came back from cine .
watched thread of destiny with baka !
at first wanted to watch "i love you man" .
but only left th first row so no choice jiu watched another one lo.
darling is at causeway with her mum and minyi .
i think her mum is contacting with minyi often and asking her out also .
yeah .
she is not working now anyway .
they sharing things and all la ? i think so .
sometimes i will think why her mum will tell minyi everything she knows between me and darling .
but she dun tell me wat they two did when they go out together .
then she go told minyi even a tiny thing me and darling did .
sigh .
thr is lots of things i jus cant get it .
darling got said b4 why minyi will know every single things she did .
maybe is her mum tell her de ba.
hais .
no matter wat .
i dun feel like thinking anymore .

i still have lots of hmks to clear .
but i m feeling tired now :( .
wanted to take a nap then wake up and do again .
jus hope that i can finish later on .

2009-07-01T01:49:00.002+08:00

ah !
went out with minyi and u never tell me .
i dun mind .
jus that u will tell me in th past .
and now u are not .
u are not .
asking me lots of stuff .
texting me that much .
calling me at least once in th afternoon .
saying u miss me .
finding me like crazy when i dun reply .
telling me wat u did and whr u are .
call me when u are awake .
telling me when u hav interview .
how u feel like and why .
suprise me and make me happy
trying to explain things to me when i jus get a bit annoyed .
now .
u only know how to say my fault .
okay . i understand .

i felt so empty .
and th great invisible distance bewteen us .
:'( !

2009-06-30T18:21:00.002+08:00

never went to school !
grahh .
actually i did it in purpose .
because i did wake up in th morning .
jus that i m lazy la !
hais .
still have to clear all th hmks :(( .
also cant copy from th others .
how i hope there is a potion that can help me to answer all th question in a spilt seconds .
then i dun have ot use my brain !
dun have to think so hard anymore .
wakakkakakak ! :D

hope u are enjoying ur outing with ur mum :)

2009-06-30T00:12:00.002+08:00

>.< !
suppose to do hmks .
but i dozed off right after i laid on th bed .
omg !
now then going to start mugging
and try to finish wat i had assigned to .
hope that i can wake up tmr for school !
and dun fall asleep again during lessons :D !

suddenly .

i miss u so much ,

and feel like going up ur house and find u ,

and sit in ur room and do all hmks like how i did in th past .

:) .

nights darling .

2009-06-29T17:20:00.002+08:00

hahs !
i went to school this morning :) .
jus bathed and vacuum th floor .
th floor is too dirty till i cant take it .
so vacuum lo .
now watching detective CONAN !
after that going to start doing hmks again !
3 eng compre .
8 physic practical practise paper !
omg .
crazy la .
then sitll have math ws .
sigh .
this is jus th life of being a student !
grah :( .

darling is with her mum now .
hmmm .
dunno at whr walk walk .
also never text me and tell me !
tsk TSK .

i had nasi lemak as my dinner :)

2009-06-28T23:53:00.005+08:00

school is starting tmr !
but yet i still have lots of hmks undone .
grahh .
die le la.
i dun like to be question by th teachers :(( .
hais .
jus now went to have dinner at darling house ;) !
hahs .
her mum cooked noodles .
th soup was nice :) .
and darling let me chop th chicken into pieces before cooking ! .
omg !
and i was like laughing all th while .
then darling kept said i was too gentle le la .
must be fierce to th chicken ! :DD .
chop CHOP !
hahahs .

i learnt how to chop a whole chicken today ;D !
thanks darling <3

2009-06-28T01:06:00.002+08:00

i hate my lappy !
because th speaker is spoilt ! :( :( :( .
seriously .
i realised i cant live in a world without sound .
i will jus simply kill myself.
hahs !
went to sis house jus now .
then woke up late .
never turn up for wok and also guides .
guess wat .
actually i m purposely >.< .
then eugene was very angry .
can hear from th call .
he said wat happy jiu work not happy jiu dun work ah .
sigh .
yeah .
is my fault .
at first i still wanted to tell him i m quiting .
but i never voice out .
dunno whether he is still going to put me in th schedule .
anyway .
i dun really bother .

i m jus being irresponsibility .

and getting use to others harsh comments .

seriously ur attitude jus so sucks nowadays .

and i dunno wat to say .

wat are you thinking nowadays ?

2009-06-26T22:40:00.002+08:00

hahs !
yesterday went to bugis street.
shop !
bought lots of stuff and clothes .
total spent = $120 !
:(( .
no money le .
after that went to qiuyi house
planned to study .
but ended up playing psp .
chatting >.< .
then spent th night at her house .
lazy to go home la .
so far ~~
her brother was like a clown ?
very fun .
played with him alot .
but he is a com freak as well -.-
then played cards with him .
till morning 6 am then sleep !
crazy .
hmmm.
had mac breakfast before sleep :DD .
so happy .
sleep till 4pm then do some random stuffs with them
and i m home now .
watching th channel u 10 o'clock show .
hahs .

school is starting on mon .
but i still have so many hmks undone ! :(( .
tmr will be a long day .
going for guide in th morning .
then work again from 2 to 7 .
by th time i reach home .
i will be freaky tired !

wanted to go ice skating on sun with baka .
but i need to acc lsy mum to eat kfc breakfast .
promise her le .
so th ice skating is postpone lo !
hmmm .

plan not to sleep tonight and finish all th hmks !
so that i will have some times to play on sun .
grahh .
dunno la .

i jus want to be more harkworking.
to finish all th pilled hmks :( .

sold out !

2009-06-24T19:10:00.002+08:00

jus heard from th agent .
my semb house is offically sold out .
someone bought it :(( .
how how ?!
whr m i going to stay ?
at yck house again .
i dun wish to :(( .
grahhh !

2009-06-24T01:13:00.004+08:00

brother is at airport now .
hahas .
cause th flight is too early .
then he cant wake up .
so spending tonight ther .
to get already prepared :)
wish him all th best .
i have lots of stuff waiting for me :( .

i dunno wat should i say .

so i kept quiet .

2009-06-23T18:09:00.002+08:00

hahahs .
changed a new blogskins .
and changed my blog to private .
hahas .
only me th author can read it .
hmm .
i also dunno why .
th background is not really wat i wanted
i jus want a star image .
but not keep blinking and changing .
but nvm la
better than nothing .
hahas .
:DD
brother is flying back tmr .
early in th morning .
6am flight 0.o !

school is starting soon .

2009-06-22T23:21:00.003+08:00

i cried because of u again .

now think back .
because of u .
i lost alot of things .
seriously alot .
i lost my sisters .
i quarelled with my family .
..........................................................................
it jus make me feel like cying again .
th very first time i get scolding so badly .
jus because of u .
and everytime .
u will only tell me dun take it to heart seriously .
how i wish u will argue back and scold her ?
but u didnt .
not even once i guess ?
and th only thing i can do is to bear everything myself .
MYSELF.
I WILL LEARN TO LIVE IN TH LIFE WITHOUT U .

2009-06-18T13:47:00.003+08:00

hahas .
my brother is going back 24 !
and my school is starting soon .
now playing Juice 2 in psp .
bro also playing :DD .
he bought a red and small mouse for my laptop :)
hahs .
haven touch on my studies for this whole stretch of holiday :( .
die la !
sign .
someone has to scold me then .
hehees .
hmmm .
maybe going to sentosa with bro .
swim !
:)

2009-06-14T23:12:00.001+08:00

hahas.
i undeleted my blog and changed th skins .
errr .
brother is coming back .

2009-05-15T20:03:00.001+08:00

YUPIEEE !
exam is over .
hmmm .
quite happy actually .
hehees .
mum is going back tmr .
11am flight .
err .
she was only here for some matter .
not even a week and she is going back again .
so later going over to stay over night .
then send her to th airport tmr .
yeah .
hope that i dun falied any sub .
when i get back th paper next week .
:))

2009-05-11T02:16:00.003+08:00

hahhas.
today is MOTHER DAY !
and my mum was back in singapore at 6pm ..
she will go back on next thur .
hahas.
then she has brought a new phone back for me .
err .
sony S500i .
yeah .
purple colour .
hmm .
i m not used to sony phone .
but nevermind .
since my mum gave it to me .
so i use lo ! :DD
hahas .
tmr need to study for my paper le !
hehes ;DD

2009-05-09T15:18:00.002+08:00

my mum is coming back tmr .
omg .
my sis said she forgot to tell me .
so jus now when i was talking to her .
then she told me .
yeah .
sorry

2009-05-08T21:38:00.002+08:00

one more week to GO ! :DD
hahaas .
i had really try my best and stury during th past few days !
and i guess .
i wont fail my subject except for eng & ss ?
which i dun have much confident in passing :( .
nevermind .
it is common for me to fail in this two subjects >.<
dun demand things that u cant even do
from th others .
because it will annoy th person sometimes .

3(7)2(1)1(8)2(9)s .

orange .

folders .

& .... .

2009-04-30T18:00:00.004+08:00

grahh ~~
i think i had jus flunked my eng compre seriously .
i was not putting much effort .
cant keep my eyes wide open and continue with th work .
and i give up ?
by laying my head on th table and wrote whatever i could without thinking .
so that i can rest ?
yeah .
when th paper ended .
i discovered that actually i can force myself through jus like how baka did .
but i choose not to .
dumb .
fail ?
more than 75% i will .
it is still th same answer when th others ask me .

physic spa 2 came next .
frankly i felt that th practical was easy when i did it .
but when i was discussing with my frend .
they all got th different answers .
and th difference gap is like ...
nvm .
it's over ! :)) .
going to study physic text now .
i dun wanna to be th one among those half of th class who fail .
maybe i should say .
aim for no failure from our class and this will definately give mrs wong a shock ! .
hahhahs .
jus try all ur best .
good luck fellow classmates !
;))

suprise me .
with th unexpectation;

2009-04-29T18:41:00.003+08:00

wakaka !
tmr having english paper !
errr .
dunno wat to study actually ..
>.< .
just hope i can pass !
hmmm .
i wanted lots and lots of money !
i mean th TNP dollar la .
jus wanted to try my luck and see whether i can get th item or not .
hehehes .
need to study le ! ~

"Don't let someone become a priority in your life,

when you are just an option in their life..

Relationships work best when they are balanced."

read this from somewhr .

and i think it makes sense :))

as well as this .

"Never explain yourself to anyone,

because the person who likes you doesn't need it

and the person who dislikes you won't believe it."

confidence ?

2009-04-28T17:40:00.007+08:00

revise revise REVISE !

oh gosh !
actually i jus forgotten that i m having my bio spa actual practical tmr !
hahaas .
need to get prepare for it by reading th past assignment teacher had given .
i think i have an incomplete file :( .
lots of ws are missing .
sigh ..
be honest .
i have no confidence of my As for th coming exam .
wat can i do ?
last minute work wont help much .

i will keep everything to myself .

all th feelings or thought from me .

i guess this helps u to feel better .

i felt totally disapointed in myself .

2009-04-27T20:31:00.003+08:00

had chem LAST practical today !
omg .
i think it was so EASY ~~~ !
hahas .
having eng exam this thurs .
and start all th paper from next wed .
but i dun have any confident frankly .
hmmm .
then went funan it mail to shop around .
and something caught my eyes .
as well as baka's .
i felt that thing is dam coool .
and i was like keep on saying even waiting for th bus .
and baka was like -.- .
she thought that i m too hyper .
wakakakaka ! ;DD .
anyway she agreed with me also lo .
hahahas :D .
errr .
off i go ~
byebye :)

once again .

all u said is jus

'aye'

'please la'

'dont angry la'

nothing else more .

ur words and action didnt match at all ...

i hold on to my tears till i went to bath .

i cried again .

for wat ?

i shouldnt right ?

ur action told me not to trust again ?

i m lost .

2009-04-26T16:26:00.002+08:00

OMG !
i slept at 8plus last night
and then woke up for a show
then slept again at 1plus am .
hahas .
at first planned to use th time to study .
but i had a headache .
then jus laid on th bed then fall alseep >.<
hehehes .
that means i slept almost th whole day yesterday .
because i woke up at 12pm today .
which is not suppose to .
i had lots of sleep .
but i didnt had a good rest :( .
tmr have chem practical skill 3 .
hmmm .
hope i can really score well .
then pull up my overall .
i wasted one day again .
tsk .
aiya .

i m too tired to make any move .

2009-04-25T14:10:00.004+08:00

is saturday again .
hmmm .
i should be outside ?
but exam is coming .
i need to revise as much as i can .
espeacially eng .
once failed .
no matter how many As i get .
is jus useless .
i got lectured from th principal on thurs .
yeah .
for th old same stuff .
and she is planning to ask me to drop chem .
but i dun wanna to .
every teacher is eyeing on me now .
is like ...
wat th hell !
i will prove them wrong by
all means .
:)